037- Priority and option

It is kinda funny how a girl that suddenly happened to like a stranger that dont even like her. Or maybe he thinks that the girl is just bugging his life. Sending weird messages and texts. Weird here is not gross like erotically gross. Weird is like how she expresses her feelings trough words. And maybe that girl always try her best to find out his condition. Weather he is safe, good or what. Well, she thought that this is what people called caring. But maybe the boy just see that as a nuisance. 

When she sends him Telegram messages, she waits with patience. And the Last Seen 50 minutes ago changes to Online and maybe only God knows how happy she can be as she saw that. And all of her single tick messages turned to double tick. She was so excited. And she waited for he might be ...typing but the status remain Online. Maybe he is busy replying his friends' messages she kept on telling herself that again and again. She still put that smile on her face.And suddenly... the Online status changed. Last seen just now. 

Thunders rumbling. 

No, he just went away for awhile. He will come back later. But the status changed

Last seen 1 minute ago

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Last seen yesterday at 8:45 pm 

And he was her priority, 

While she is only his option. 

Now that she guess he is happy, 

Because she is now easily forgotten. 

Gosh, this is hurt. How can you make the double tick as the penanda ukur kesabaran seseorang? And this is not my first time. Nor my second or third. Dah terlampau banyak dah.. They was right,

It is because you care so much, that make you hurt so much. 

Maaf aku bukan nabi, 

Pabila kesabaran ku teruji, 

Kau akan berdoa kau tidak pernah mengenali diri ku lagi. 

Atau apa mungkin?

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