043- Melbourne!

So I have to narrate my experience about going to Melbourne for someone's sake. Hahahaha takpe lah untung jugak at least I got to update my blog.

Our family wefie at KLIA before boarding the flight.. 

Okay so we went from KLIA. We departed at 2:00 PM



Okay you know what... NOT IN THE MOOD YET.. try again in an hour.  Bai!

042- A lil dead inside.

Tetiba rasa nak marah-marah. Rasa frust. Rasa kecewa menunggeng.. Pembawakkan budak kot.. Haha see nak buat lawak pun macam tak semangat. -___- 

Frust tunggu dengan penuh setia, 

For like a day.. 

"Nanti chat balik..."

Then I waited again.. 

After waiting and waiting...

All I got was

"Penat, nak tidur.."

Gosh. Hurt. 

Raja betul. Kalau nak carik lelaki, carik yang he will love you more than you love him. And now, he doesnt even look at me.. I will walk my way out, dont you worry.. 

Yeay, you're no longer my Bae. 

Sorry for bugging you all this while. 

Worry about you when Im not even your concern. 

I can pretend like you dont even exist, its not that hard anyway. 

Anyway, I've always been invisible kan? 

So it wont be a problem for both of us. 

Thanks. For your time, your everything. 

041- Insomnia sucks!

Semalam aku dihantui masalah tak boleh tidur. Insomnia attacked kot. Seksa wehh. Mane tak nye, aku je yang terkelip-kelip dalam gelap.. Or maybe salah aku. Dah aku tidur petang dengan teramat lama, then aku pergi tibai coffee pulok.. Memang combo yang ummphhh. Then aku main komputer punye lama, tahu-tahu satu rumah dah gelap... Tapi heran jugak baru pukul 11:30... Biasanya Babah ade tengok bola or golf.. Aku keluar, cuma bilik aku dengan bilik air je yang terang benderang...

Main lagi komputer.. Dalam 12 lebih, konon nak try tidur ah... Ehh gi main Insta pulak.. Pastu ade kawan gaduh dengan pakwe dia.. Hahahaha boleh pi tolong dia dua orang pulak.. Naseb baik dah okay dah. Pastu hahahahahahhaah then aku ngan dia ber whatsapp.. Sebab dia notice aku still online. Then terus dia tak jadi main Dota. Then dalam pukul 2:30 dia mintak excuse nak tengok tournament ape entah.

Aku try tidur balik dengan harapan dapat tidur lena. Dahlah hujan semalam, patut memang best ah! Sekali, mata ni hahhh susoh beno nak lelap... Pastu on komputer balik, layan naruto, download lagu best-best.. Dalam 3:30 turn off komputer ambik head phone and dengar lagu...

Tapi tak tidur instantly jugak.. Sempat lagi tengok Twitter, layan Vine, lagu, instagram and everything. Last-last rase nak nangis. HAHAH tu paling entah hape-hape sekali. Last2 tertidur... Alhamdulillah!

Pukul 6:30 bangun hantar adik-adik gi skolah wth..

Balik sambung tidur balik ah! HAHAH. Pukul 9:30 dipaksa bangun sebab babah carik gam and gunting.. Urghhh. So now here I am, with my cup of hot coffee.. Hahaha.

Sekian.

Insomnia suck! Fuck. 

040- Judgmentalism.

Well to be honest, I have 2 reasons why I should update my blog.. Or maybe 3. 

1- It has been a very long long time since the last time I updated my blog. And I knew for sure I have so many silent readers *senyum sinis*. Heran jugak aku.. Contohnya Idayu: 

Me: Weh aku still tak dapat lesen kete. Sangkut kat L.
Idayu: Yeahh aku tahu. Kau pergi attend kelas BI tu buat hape...
Me: How the hel....
Idayu: I read your blog... 

Hurmmmmmmm silent reader detected! Takpo takpo.. At least hahaha aku tahu aku tak membebel sensorang and I will have to be more aware on updating blog after this... 

2- Because I wanna test my typing skill over my new keyboard. Hahahahaa I know it sounds silly but hahaha I bought myself a new keyboard macam PC tu even though I use laptop.. And since aku sendiri dah lama tak guna PC keyboard, awal-awal tu memang awkward nak mampus.. Typo saje memanjang.. Tapi lama-lama dah terbiasa. Namun, nak jugak test typing skill untuk karangan.. Hahahaa suke ahh dengar bunyi dia. Macam pakai typewriter Jidi. God I miss that old thing.  

Okay watching my laptop, and keyboard as well as my subs make me happy.. Hahaha. Ingat nak upgrade jadi PC one day. Maybe macbook hehehehe tapi bajet belum cukup bakhangg. And maybe beli desktop Apple ni is quite membazir. 

3- Because tetibe inspired by my friend punye topic. Judgmentalism. So this is what that Im going to talk about... Punye panjangkann muqadimah yang aku bagi. Ni baru nak masuk isi. Hehehe. Okay first I thought that judgmentalism ni bukan satu perkataan pun.. Hahaha sesuka hati je aku tibai. Dahlah bila type tu, the garis merah appeared. Dah sahh la kan. Pastu aku try search, jumpa! Hahahah 

Hahh bapak beso aku bagi kat hangpa semua. 

Aku tak faham actually dengan sikap or our society's mentalities. Melayu, Cina, India atau lain-lain, semua tak lari dari sikap senang nak judge someone, tapi obviously laa kan orang Melayu ni lebih sikit.. 

Aku sendiri pernah kena. Okay, so my family kitorang cakap mix BM and BI. Baik family kecik kat Dungun or bila balik KT or KL. Alhamdulillah, my family members semua boleh bercakap dalam Bahasa Inggeris fluently, terutama Jidi (my mother's father). Jidi punya English perghhh mantop. So, bukan sesuatu yang hairan laa bila kitorang gather and talk in malay and english sebab semua faham. Nak dijadikan cerita, kitorang pergi kedai makan and Ain and I were having conversation in English, Jidi mencelah laa sekali. Aku dah nampak waitress tu jeling. Haha time aku nak gi bayar kat counter, mamat yang jaga kaunter tu speaking dengan aku. Hahaha aku gelak je laa and aku jawab Melayu. And boleh dia jawab 

"Laa boleh je cakap melayu rupenye.. orang tganu leklek pulokk. Aku ingat mat saleh. Rupenye mat saleh celup. Celup tepungg. Dik, lain kali op, cakap BM je la. Cakap tganu lagi molek. Ni dokk, berangan nok jadi mat saleh, ceh." 

Panas molek.. Aku just senyum kambeng and chow. Aku doakan mamat tu dihurung lipas dan cicak masa dia tidur. 

Ape, cakap BI je terus dilabel lupa bahasa ibunda? Ahaaa ni bukan first time laa aku kene actually. Dah banyak kali dah. Tambah pulak, my mom seorang lecturer yang sangat strict. Semua students kene speaking ngan dia regardless their courses. Business ke marketing ke agama islam ke computer science ke admin ke, semua students yang nak bercakap dengan mak aku kene cakap dalam BI. Hahaha semua cuakk. Ade jugak aku kene sound dengan several students sebab mak macam tu. Dah tak boleh sembur mak, sembur anak pun jadilah kan? -______________- Fuck you. 

Nampak tak sikap judgmental tu? Tak nampak lagi, satu lagi contoh.. 

Aku ada kenal sorang kawan, which is quite close to me, let say nama dia Halimah (bukan nama sebenar). Mak ayah dia orang baik-baiklaa. Mak dia ustazah. So people semua expect dia behave like how she should. Hahah tapi kesiann, berkawan dengan aku and the geng yang kepala ting tong, dia pun sama ikut ting tong.. Zaman dulu kan stocking pendek tu famous. Aku and the geng memang takde masalah nak pakai stoking pendek sebab parents kitorang tak kesah sangat pasal stoking ni semua. Diorang pulak yang tolong beli.. Lain dengan member aku Halimah ni, mana mungkin mak ayah dia bagi beli stoking pendek... So dia kumpul duit sendiri and dia beli sendiri stoking. Hahah nak gelak pun ade. Tapi takkan laaa dia nak pakai depan parents dia kann. Mampus kene leter. So before she went to school, dia pakai stoking biasa yang panjang sampai betis. Sampai je skolah, masuk je kelas, dia pun tukar stoking. Kelakar. Ade laa mulut mulut sumbang ni yang cakap 

"Cehh mak ustazah, anok dok pakka. Pakai stoking pendek bohh!" 

Dari sini aku belajar 3 benda. First hahahahaa berhati-hati masa pilih kawan okay adik-adik sane.. Peer pressure and parents pressure is the worst that you might want to handle. Trust me. Second Iman tak dapat diwarisi dari seorang ayah yang bertaqwa. In Halimah's case, ibu. In my opinion, we should live our life just like how we want it to be. It is not a necessary sebab mak ayah ustaz ustazah, anak kena jadi alim, pegang al-Quran 24 jam, tasbih kiri kanan, serban sebesar bakul atas kepala. Third we can never satisfy peoples' hearts. Baik, bising. Jahat lagi lah kannnn. 

Tak semestinya orang yang pakai singlet and seluar pendek pergi mall tu masuk neraka, 

or orang yang berjubah 5 helai dengan serban dan tasbih tu masuk syurga. 

Nampak perempuan keluar berdua dengan lelaki, terusss orang kata "Hahh gewe dating... Natang buat maksiat." Without knowing yang diorang tu adik beradik kandung muka lain... 

Or... 

Nampak lelaki puji lelaki lain, cakap ada rupa lelaki idaman (hehehe), teruss orang akan kata "Natang gayy! Bawok bala..." Padahal mengeratkan ukhwah tu sunnah nabi.. Padahal kalau perempuan puji perempuan yang lain itu normal.

And banyak lagi contoh lain yang korang boleh relate sendiri.. Belum lagi sentuh nampak loaded, nampak miskin, orang handsome, orang cantik semua.. 

Those who likes to pay the bill does so not because they are loaded.
But simply because they value friendship above money.
Those who takes initiative at work does so not because they are stupid.
But simply because they understand the concept of responsibilities.
Those who apologizes first after fight does so not because they are wrong.
But simply because they value the people around them.
Those who are willing to help you does so not because they owe you anything.
But simply they see you as a true friend.
Those who often text you does so not because they have nothing better to do.
But simply because you are always in their heart and their mind.

Just please people, stop trying to magnify others mistakes and start to magnify yours. 

Haha mohon jangan bash. Salam sayang, Dini. 

Psstt tahniah aizek dapat hantar wakil Tokoh Nilam Negeri ke peringkat Kebangsaan. Proud of you, Syamil! Go kick others contestants' ass! TIZTOPS! 

039- Dear Sister...

Having a sister is such a precious luxury to me. My sister will always be that person that I can share my deepest secrets with. I can always count on her to be there to share the difficult mountains that I may have to climb and those surprising moments of joy. In turn, I will be her shoulder to cry on over a lost love, or maybe celebrating her biggest achievement so far, be by her side when she finally gives her heart to a Prince and I will always thank her for making me laugh harder than anyone else that I know.

A birthday is just another excuse to tell her why she will always be my favorite person. I can just buy her all the cosmetic products, Revlon, Maybelline, Dior, just name it , so that she can feel beautiful wherever she goes, but I know she doesn’t need them. Simply because she is naturally beautiful. She always wear this bedak sejuk before going to bed because she worries about her muka bertampung and keep convincing me to wear it with her. She is the one that can change my tears into laughter. But most important of all, she always manage to find a way to remind me why having a sister is the greatest gift in the world.

And today, my little sister is already 14 years old. She managed to overcome a lot of hardship and circumstances herself. She used to be very kedekut tahik hidung masin with me where she will hide her belongings inside her wardrobe so that I cannot have them. She used to put me in a lot of troubles. She used to make me hate having a sister and prayed that she got hit by a bus (Hahaha). But today, I just cannot imagine my life without her presence.

Therefore, thank you. Thank you for being a very dear sister to me. I know, I might not be the best sister you could have ever wish, but Im trying to be one. We might not be able to celebrate your birthday together again, so have a blast one. You are the gedikest, nebengest person on earth and Kakak sayang yin to the moon and back.

038- Tomorrow is the last day...

Bila dah nak habis sedih pulak dah. Okay so besok kelas last English Course aku. For sure Im gonna snap a lot of pict tomorrow! Dah siap-siap kosongkan phone untuk isi gambar. Hahaha. And ade orang upah aku untuk jadi photographer aku. Not based on my skills obviously, but simply because I use iPhone. -.- Senjata makan tuan ni macam mane.. 

And besok kitorang punya kelas dekat tepi pantai. Yess! Agak-agak boleh main air tak. Hehehe. 

And Ahad aku pergi KL. With one and only one purpose, berjimba sakan to the fullest! Hahaha one of my friends dah willingly nak bawak aku pergi jalan-jalan. Punn sebab aku cakap aku bayar duit minyak. Payback time. Hehehe. 

So long!

037- Priority and option

It is kinda funny how a girl that suddenly happened to like a stranger that dont even like her. Or maybe he thinks that the girl is just bugging his life. Sending weird messages and texts. Weird here is not gross like erotically gross. Weird is like how she expresses her feelings trough words. And maybe that girl always try her best to find out his condition. Weather he is safe, good or what. Well, she thought that this is what people called caring. But maybe the boy just see that as a nuisance. 

When she sends him Telegram messages, she waits with patience. And the Last Seen 50 minutes ago changes to Online and maybe only God knows how happy she can be as she saw that. And all of her single tick messages turned to double tick. She was so excited. And she waited for he might be ...typing but the status remain Online. Maybe he is busy replying his friends' messages she kept on telling herself that again and again. She still put that smile on her face.And suddenly... the Online status changed. Last seen just now. 

Thunders rumbling. 

No, he just went away for awhile. He will come back later. But the status changed

Last seen 1 minute ago

Last seen 2 minutes ago

Last seen 3 minutes ago

Last seen 1 hour ago

Last seen 3 hours ago

Last seen yesterday at 8:45 pm 

And he was her priority, 

While she is only his option. 

Now that she guess he is happy, 

Because she is now easily forgotten. 

Gosh, this is hurt. How can you make the double tick as the penanda ukur kesabaran seseorang? And this is not my first time. Nor my second or third. Dah terlampau banyak dah.. They was right,

It is because you care so much, that make you hurt so much. 

Maaf aku bukan nabi, 

Pabila kesabaran ku teruji, 

Kau akan berdoa kau tidak pernah mengenali diri ku lagi. 

Atau apa mungkin?

Kau fikir aku manusia sempurna

Yang hatinya tidak pernah terguris,

Dan perasaannya tidak akan terluka?

036- Little trip to KT

Okay so hari Selasa, 10 hb, aku pergi Kuala Terengganu with a mission, that is to finish my driving classes and get my license as soon as possible. Hahaha tapi lain pulak jadinya. And this is how it goes. 

10.03.2015

Pukul 9:30 teksi (Pak Harun) nak datang and drove me to KT tapi hahahahaha pukul 8:30 aku baru bangun and barang-barang belum kemas pun lagi. Kelam kabut aku pagi tu. Tapi dengan bantuan superbibik aku, everything settled well. Aku pergi mandi, masuk-masuk bilik, baju-baju semua dah bersusun atas katil with an empty luggage nearby. So aku just masukkan je baju dalam luggage tu. Hahahaha masehh bibik, sayang bibik. Then everything settle, aku pun keluar. Bawak beg semua. Heran jugak sebab Pak Harun tak sampai-sampai lagi. Pak Harun dah serve for my family ever since kitorang pindah Dungun. Tak pernah sekali pun lewat. Naseb baik aku pergi check pintu pagar B (Rumah aku ade dua gates). Rupanya aku keluar tu, Pak Harun dah tunggu dah siap cekak pinggang. haha takde ah. Saje tambah. Hehe sorry Pak Harun.. 

10:15 am aku selamat sampai kat rumah Jidi kat Tok Jembal. Since my grandparents banyak rumah, aku pun dah naik confuse. Then turunkan luggage, bayar Pak Harun blablabla, aku pun masuk rumah. Tak sempat duduk, Jidi dah siap-siap dah nak bawak aku pergi PSM (my driving institute... Hahahaha instituteee!) So, layankan saja. Masukkan luggage dalam kereta, terus calo pergi PSM. 

Sampai kat PSM akak tu cakap paling awal aku boleh start buat atas litar is on 7th of APRIL. Madafakas. Aku rasa macam nak pengsan slash menangis mase dengar bait-bait indah dari akak PSM tu. Then aku tanye laa apesal lame beno sebab aku dah book ever since bulan February.. Dia cakap..

"Hari tu book dok letok dalam buku, so dok tertulis laa kat sini. Bukan saloh saya. Doh salah saye la? Pastu nok book ni pulok, kene tengok cikgu awok free ke busy. Sekarang ni kereta auto cuma ade sebuah je. Kereta tu laa untuk litar, jalan raya dan test JPJ jadi nok takmboh, awok kene tunggu... " 

Sakitnya tuh disini.. 

Then malas cerita panjang lebar last-last aku pergi book je laa untuk 7th April. GST dah applied dah. Aku still tak dapat lesen. Sedih tahu tak. Haha sedih-sedih pun, pergi laa call kawan aku.

 Dia syorkan aku pergi Pulau Redang. Dia nak suruh aku buat ape pergi pulau tatkala hati berduka begini? Nak suruh aku bercakap dengan terumbu dan karang di lautan, atau ikut Penyu-penyu balik ke kayangan? Atau nak suruh aku selfie and ambik gambar ngan joran? Heish. Then dia sebut pasal Paya Bunga Square. 

So petang tu, hantar Ain pergi Losong, aku pun negotiate ngan Moksu (nenek sedara aku) untuk bawak aku pergi Paya Bunga Square. Moksu ni memang boleh ajak berjimba laa tapi dia tak berani bawak kete. Kete Om yang Myvi tu ade, cuma dia takut nak bawak. So dia kata boleh, boleh sangatt tapi kene naik motor. Hahahaha aku dah lama tak naik motor. Dahtu takde choice, aku pun follow je laa. 

Malam tu tak banyak sangat aktiviti. Tengok Mat Luthfi, tunggu Ain habis kelas. Then tidur. Awal aku tidur, Ain ah ni ajak tidur awal -.- 

11.03.2015

Pagi tu bangun awall! Hahah eksaited nak gi jalan kot. 7:30 dah siap mandi semua. Tapi janji dengan Moksu pukul 10 pagi. And keluar bilik je, rumah dah kosong, takde orang. Atas meja ada kunci kereta, roti canai and duit belanja. Hehehe sayanggg jidi! 

Punya takde kerja dah, aku pergi cuci tandas. Hahahaha kesian aku. Then pukul 9:55 aku turun kat bawah. Tunggu Moksu ah. Punye lah lama tunggu, berselfie semua dalam 10:15 moksu sampai. Pastu naik motor! Boleh bayang tak, sepanjang aku naik motor tu, berapa banyakk selfie aku ambik, aku pun dahtak tahu. And memang aku senyummmm memanjang. Macam orang gila laa. Moksu pun naik heran. Hahahaha sorry moksu. 

Pastu sampai laa kat Paya Bunga Square tu. Hahaha Om was right, takde ape pun dalam tu. It such a waste of time. Bangunan dia besar dan cantik, luas, tapi kedai banyak belum bukak. Banyak laa kedai kosong lagi.. Wayang dia pun belum siap lagi. Cuma ada wayang 7D. Bayar RM 8 sorang. Haha boleh tahan laa syok, tapi sebab dah biasa, so macam tak heran sangat dah. Moksu pulak lain hal, sekejap cabut spek, sekejap pakai, hahahaa sebab takut.. Thrill movie, naik roller coaster. Last-last dia cakap "Natang ape mainan ahu dini main ni..." Hahahahaha sakit perut aku suke.. 

Then kitorang naik ke level 4 untuk pergi makan. Ade food court, tapi makanan belum ready.. Mase tu dah 11 am tapi kedai makan belum start jual lagi... Then Moksu ajak keluar dari Paya Bunga Square tu and ajak aku pergi makan kat Stesen Bas depan tu. 

Hahaha knowing me, aku memang flexible, maksudnya boleh layan semua.. Tapi Stesen Bas tu belum pernah pergi lagi. Dah bas pun tak pernah naik, pe jadahnya aku nak pergi stesen bas kan. Then kitorang pergi laa dekat satu kedai makan ni. Banyak je kedai makan kat situ tapi hahahaha kotor la sikit. Aku order maggi kari dengan tepeng. Moksu pun order bende yang sama.. Dahlah lama, tak sedap mane pun, mahal pulak... Total makan RM 14.00. And Moksu cakap mangkuk dia ada bau tahi lipas. Dia tanya aku, tak bau ke? hahahahahaa aku mane tahu tahi lipas bau canne... Dah tibai semangkuk maggi, baru Moksu cakap pasal lipas ni semua.. Nak pitam rase. Tapi alhamdulillah, takde pun lagi stakat ni muntah-muntah. So okay la kot.. Maybe tu lah first time and last time aku pergi makan dekat Stesen Bas.. 

Pastu kitorang pergi jalan ke Hock Kee Seng Emporium. aka Kedai Hokkiseng. Hok kiseng. Bukan hok kite.. Hahaha lawak jidi. =.='' Pastu jumpe satu baju ni. Voir punya. Cantek laa jugak. Satu RM 110. kalau beli 2, RM 100. Wth. Hahahaha beli dua ah. Habis pokai aku... Rase jugak menyesal tapi takpolah.. 

Petang tu, Ain pulak meroyan nak pergi makan kat Uncle Chua Signature. Hahahaha duit dah tinggal RM 5 ni.. Nak minum air mineral saje pun tak lepas.. Pastu dia dengan sukarela nak belanja aku as long as aku temankan dia makan. Nampak tak mengidam kat situ.. Naseb baik Uncle Chua tu within walking distance je. Oh, rumah nenek aku memang tengah-tengah bandar.. Tepi Primula. Hahahahah so tak susah la nak carik makan... Then kitorang jalan kaki pergi Uncle Chua and makan.. Layankan kepuasan Ain Ali 27. 

Then malam tu Moksu ngan aku pergi jalan-jalan dekat Festival Thailand di Syahbandar. Ain takde sebab pi main Taekwando, tournament nak dekat dah katenye... Best. Sebab aku belum pernah pergi ekspo gitu, so best la. Tak beli banyak pun sebab duit dah lesap dekat Hokkiseng =.= Aku just bawak RM 5 je pergi Festival Thai tu. Beli air RM 2 tinggal lagi RM 3. Hahah pastu terliur tengok budak tu makan sweet corn, pergi beli pulak jagung dalam mangkuk tu. Mahal nak mampus, kecik je RM 2.50. So tinggal RM0.50. Hahahaha sadis tak? Heish.

Haha moralnya anak-anak: You dont need to rich in order to be happy. Make the most out of what you have, and you'll have what others dont, satisfaction. 

As for me, I am totally satisfied with my vacation this time. Pergi somewhere yang tak pernah pergi, way out of my comfort zone.. Kalau mama tahu aku naik motor, makan kat stesen bas, mesti dia dah tak bagi aku keluar.. =.=

Oh yeah, 22 hb nak pergi KL. Poksu pulak dah janji nak bawak aku tour pusing-pusing KL 2 hari. Mula-mula was-was. Kelas laa ape la. Last-last on, haha tu pun lepas aku kata aku belanje makan. Hampeh.. Be sure to update my blog as well next time..

035- Mabuk..

Ada masa-masa tertentu,
Perangai gila-gila itu perlu.
Hahaha tapi bukan selalu. 

Noted.