Hello hello. Now I've finish revamping my blog. Sweep the dust here and there, been through all the blog posts, both posted and also the ones in draft. Just having another different view about the old me. I would say, I outgrew her a bit. Just a bit. Because boii I was so ashamed of my blog posts. But I didnt take them down. Because I want them to be there. As my personal indicator of progression.
Me
Over the last 2 years, so many things happened. And I dont even want to remember most of them. They are quite painful. Me, losing so many friends around me, what's new anyway... Making friends, losing friends, as quickly as that. Ive been crying over and over the same spilled milk, but the milk will still be spilt. Nothing can change over me crying for something that did happened in the past. I dont say I have no regret. Some, I do. But they are just not worth it, not anymore. Not worth the crying all over again, the hurting, the leaving-me-again.
I've always been so suck at making friends. Ever since I was a little girl. I guess nothing change much...
Study
The last time I was blogging, I was still in INTEC Shah Alam, finishing up my Australian High School there. Best timee! Then my mom died. And I suddenly have this change of heart about going there. Dengg I shouldve go there... My mom wouldve want me to. And I would like that too. I wish how I didnt let him talk me out of this. But, shit happens.
After finishing up my Ausmat, I pursue my study in Limkokwing Cyberjaya. Yup.. I was an architecture student, for only a year. Because I cannot really adapt to their environment.. Their way of being a student isnt something that I can just follow and adapt along the way. I did give myself some time of adjusting myself, but you know when you already fail.
So I quit. Then my sisters are coming home. So Ebi will be staying with me since Babah wont be working here. Zuyyin will go to her SEGi University in Damansara, leaving Ebi alone. At first, Babah was thinking of registering Ebi to Nexus, since I was supposed to be in Limkokwing. But it will be quite awkward for Poksu and Kak Anis, now that they are staying there, at Babah's house in Cyberjaya...
Then I know there is only one option for me. I need to enrol to the nearest university from my house. Even though it is pretty islamic and all. Hurm. Still adjusting. But this time, I dont really have a choice. I cant just think about what I want. Now, I need to think about my sisters as well. It will be a challenge, but it is a challenge that I dont mind taking. As long as I can serve my sisters, Im willing to do it. Oh by the way, I am now an Economic student! pulekkk...
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