Let me start the entry by putting a suitable gif for my situation first...
I didnt know how powerful a single boy can be in our life until recently. A boy, a man, a fella.. I dont know. How he can influence my life and turn it upside down. One minute I am so angry toward him, he makes me wanna tear my hair out, crying and sobbing like I've lost my husband. And the other minute he can make me the happiest, childish girl I could ever be. Everything is not easily changed but he has the power to change my life.
Whenever he is right beside me, I feel so safe. All of my insecurities will fade away and poofftt disappear into the thin air. Whenever he cracks his silly jokes, I will giggle and laugh even though I've heard the jokes for thousandth times. Whenever he puts his arm around me, I can feel that nothing will ever go wrong. And whenever I see his smile, I know that everything fall into places. He doesnt even has to try hard, but he is always something in my eyes.
I know that I shouldnt feel this way toward him. He is my friend and forever will be. Nothing will change between us, both of us know that. But, it is predictable that if you have a guy as your best friend, you will end up fall in love with him.
But, I dont want to fall in love with him. That is insane. He is insane. And I am already out of my mind. Gosh. It is gross.
No, he is not the one. I know it, but I cant help it.
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