You're out.

Single tick. 

You know what this means, Dini. 

You’re out. 

The pain I feel in my chest… The eerie silence of nothingness. It happened before with Wan. And it happened again with Dyana and Yahya.

Never thought I would experience it again in such short future.

Now I cant stop thinking- aku memang babi ke? Why is it when everything went south, I would be there..? Why is it so hard for me to maintain a good and strong friendship. With anyone. Was I bounded to be alone..

But I have to say- this pain. It hurts more. I thought it would hurt less, now that I’ve experienced it again and again. But no, this one cut me so deep and so slow. That I can’t stop bleeding, on the inside. And I can’t stop crying on the outside.