Hello. How are you guys doing.. Me not so great... Lately, I just cant see any goods in others. All they do just piss me off. All I touch turned to shit. I tried. I tries to be as optimistic as I can be. But somehow, I always failed. People have funny way of slapping me so hard on the face, showing me the ugly truth about every good things that I thought I have.
I guess I have been more depressed wayyy longer than I thought. And way worse than I imagine. But people wont take me seriously if I said I have depression isnt.. It is just not normal for a 16 year old girl to have nasty thoughts of killing herself. It is not normal for a 16 year old to be so desperate to let everything go.. to just stop trying.
Actually, that is what I really need. For it to stop. I need the time to stop ticking- it feels like an endless race. I need people to stop judging. I need them to stop laughing. I need my heart to stop aching so much. I need my eyes to stop crying every single day. I need my mind to stop thinking nonsense and harmful shit.
I need the hurt to stop-- it is just too painful for me to take everything in.. Please, someone, make it stop...
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