*today's entry is about my life that no one else know. Let just say, the darkest side of mine..
I know that I used to make mistakes before. It was just, its not that I never try to change. But to keep it that way isnt that easy.
Hijrah itu mudah tapi istiqamah yang susah
Literally translated, it will be "change yourself to better one is easy, the challenge lies when you need to maintain the changes. Which I would say it is not necessarily true. First of all, changing yourself is already hard. You used to live in that certain way of a lifestyle. And suddenly, you decided to take another route. It takes not only all the courage and determination that you have, it also requires a very strong mental and even stronger support system.
Why would one say hijrah is easy? It is not easy. Trust me. But compared to maintaining it for a longer period, hijrah IS INDEED easy. Implying that staying better than your old self is wayy and wayy and wayy harder. Dont undermine people who is striving to be better. You dont fight their battle. You dont have their scars. All you see is how such a failure they appear.
I really want to change. Its always there in my heart.
I hope I did the right choice by ignoring you just now. If I keep on rely to you, I just afraid I cant live without you. Sorry =(
Nah bunga ros untuk awak.
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