018- Lonesome

Today, I just thought that this will be the worst day ever in my whole life. I used to being asked by someone back then, I dont even remember who, "Do you ever feel alone even in crowds?" And I'm like, Duhh never! My friends will always be there beside me.

But then, today, I feel it. Not just today. It is more like recently. My friends, they dumped me. They ignored me. They could ever treat me like I never exist. Worse come to worst, my bestfriend, used to be I guess, will move to another school in days and she was like "who is she? I never known her.."

I dont know if it is just me that being too emotional or maybe too harsh with others but hey, they should except me for who I am. Not for who they need me to be. Please, friends, I need you now. Now or never. Because, I'm starting to feel that I dont need you guys the same as you guys dont need me anymore. =( And believe me, its hurt inside me. Please remove the pain. I dont need this.

017- Le Classghomm. cgheepi much.

So we have been in this classroom for a week now. And you wont believe who is appointed as our classleader. Izzat! yeahhh at least he is from IBS and he is one of a few familiar faces in my class. My class is super duper horrible! Not only that it is soo tiny, it has to accommodate about 30 students. Just to make it even more yuck, it is so dark. Because our windows are blocked by these trees. Can you imagine studying in a can of sardine type of class and got no light in... Hello endless sleep! 

Did I say that I am the one who is responsible for the keceriaan. I just dont have the idea to decorate my class to be more cheery. =(  I'm quite creative *usually. But this time, I'm totally lack of idea~ The class is gloomy and very dark. Makes me feel hopeless to design it. 

The moment Fitri look at me and giggle, I hate him..! It makes me feel awwwwkkkkkwwwaaarrrdddddd.

Till then!

016- Orientation

Today we went through orientation day.. It is kinda weird for me because a) we have to study first and then only we will have our orientation, and b) why tf I need an orientation at my own damn school?! I've been here for 3 years now.  And, it is no fun kind of orientation. 

I miss my Form 1 orientation. The moment when we all had our sukaneka. It was very fun! We'll have to find candies inside bowls full with flour. Then, tak kenal maka tak cinta session. But unfortunately, the session had to be cancelled on the last minute. I dont need the session since I already knew about Aizek.

And people starts to go away... I mean, it is good that they are moving forward. They went for their own SBPS and MRSMs. Two of them went to SMAPs. 2014 is going to be a whole new year. I left IBS and went to join Intan instead. New group of classmates, new faces, new environment. For better or for worse right... 

015- So long...

Sorry for not blogging for quite long time. New year, new form, new environment, old school. Hehh 

Hey I would like to make an announcement here. Since my English isnt that powerful, I will now writing my entry in English. Not full English but I will try my best. And its not a sin to make my English stronger. New look for 2013. I just hoping that 2013 will be better than 2012. But it seems like no. Hell no. Now I'm in a serious dilemma and I feel like my head will be booommmm like bomb one day. 

Why is life sooo complicated? Huh. Again, I told myself, I just need to smile and everything will be back like the way it was before. Idayu, are you forgetting me there? =) Naahh I'm just joking. Oh yeah, forget to add. Idayu already leaving us.. She is now a student in Kesuma, Semenyih, Selangor. Her father just being posted that late last year.. 

Just like what he said, maybe it is the time I need to reduce my friends. For my own reason. zzZZ. Who will eventually care actually? Okay I have Addmath (I really like the subject btw) and English 119 to go. Goodnight.