Changes as in 'change' to be someone else, someone better or even in some worse case, someone worse. In Islam, the term changes also be known as 'hijrah'. Some people always misunderstood the word Hijrah, and just said hijrah is common to word pindah(move). Like moving from one place to another. Thats hijrah as easy as that. But try to expand your scope to something bigger than just change your place of living. How about, changing the host you're living in. Changing yourself from bad to good, or from good to better!
Try to strive, to be better than who you are today. Or who you were yesterday. And try to always be better than the person you will become tomorrow. Thats how you hijrah. Thats how you strive for perfections. I know I know, people aren't perfect. But whats wrong of trying to be better? Whats wrong of trying to change the society you're currently living in?
So today, I experienced some sort of thing that kinda pissed me off a bit. So as usual, we have to pray Zohor together (berjemaah) and to be honest, I dont really like the rule. I mean I have nothing against those who pray together yadiyadiyada. But me personally, I dont really like that. I mean, its 1:00 pm in the evening and we, students we sweat a lot and the smell it produces, HA! like bangkai you know. But, the rules said that even if you pray or not, you have to be there in the surau as well. And gosh I dont like that. I mean we the one who dont pray, we have no business in there. Just let us out, study in the library or what not. BUT NO. The ustazahs and the pengawas just want to keep us like dogs.
Then came this one nosy ustazah whom I despise. Not hate, more just despise. like not really like. And she tergedek gedek came to me and just said out-loud "Nia, kenapa awak tak sembahyang? Saya tak pernah tengok awak sembahyang?" or rather the translation is "Nia, why are you not praying? I never saw you praying."
And boy, I was so mad.
- First, heyyyy! That is not right. I mean, its just Zohor and we were allowed to go home after 2pm and theres like 2 hours left for Asar. How do you know Im not praying?
- Second, why do you keep your eyes on me? There are other girls there, and you only noticed me the one who never pray? You either very like me or very dislike me. And Im pretty sure it is the latter.
- Third, it is not fair to judge me from that one act. I always there during the solat hajat and bacaan yassin and what not. So its kinda unfair for you to say things like that.
And, lastly, as for someone who was just trying to get myself into my Agama, how do you want me react with that kind of prejudice that you just gave to me? You honestly think I would just get my ass up and pray without having the slightest feeling of hatred in myself. Towards you. Yes, no wonder the others keep on viewing Islam as terrorist and hateful religion. Because of the actions that you did. How can you expect people to calmly accept the embarrassment you gave? And even fall in love with Islam even deeper?
We always dream of changes, but sometimes we dont want to change ourselves firsthand. And even worse, in some cases, like this one, one is trying to change, and not knowing the struggle they have to face day by day, someone just came and easily threw that hateful prejudice shit to them. As the result, that one person dont wanna change anymore. It is a lot easier to remain the same, isnt it?
